The Fear of Cancer

Everyone has it.  No woman goes for her mammogram thinking this is no big deal, they will NEVER find anything wrong.  No man goes for a prostate check and the thought of cancer never crosses his mind.  No one who smokes thinks they are the one person in the world who cancer will never touch.

Then you have symptoms.

The fear that grips you in the stomach and lungs and you can’t breathe and you check for your lab results every 15 minutes because the waiting is killing you and when they come in the fear to open them.

Then the shock from opening the lab results.  Facing that everything isn’t okay.

It’s the not knowing the next step.

Not knowing if it is cancer but knowing that all the other options aren’t great either.

Trying to avoid looking things up on the internet.

Going to the doctor because you think you have an infection but finding out that you don’t.

Being blindsided because it’s a time that the thought of cancer hasn’t crossed your mind.

The lack of control.

The fear of cancer.





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39 Responses to The Fear of Cancer

  1. katzlator says:

    I have been watching a most interesting Summit called “The Truth About Cancer.” Regardless of the diagnosis, it really pays to do a great deal of research which is an added burden under the circumstances you describe but worth it. As it happens I am already doing many things correctly in relation to the latest knowledge on prevention, eat whole foods of many colors, especially fruits and vegetables, exercise, enough sleep, and watch stress levels – rather old fashioned advice in many ways like what our Grandmothers might have told us.

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    • Barb Knowles says:

      Good idea and thanks for reading and commenting here. I’ve been hoping for an all-cookie diet but I’m eating lots of fruit just in case, lol. Getting enough sleep is an issue right now.


  2. Cancer is no longer a death sentence. Yes, it’s terrifying, but people are curing themselves with the help of new technologies and food. I just watched the series with hundreds of interviews of those who have conquered cancer. The disease is individual. There is not just one across the board that doctors want to start immediate chemo for. Watch Ty Bollinger’s The Truth About Cancer: A Global Quest. Not only is this series informative regarding big pharma that aims to force people into their costly and deadly treatment, it provides hope for those who decide to try natural remedies. Since no two cancers are the same, no one treatment like chemo will cure. Be educated. There is hope, dear ones. Look up this powerful and life-changing series. I know right now there is a discount. Please go to their not for profit site and save your loved ones. Knowledge is power.

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  3. Seems the older one gets, the more lumps and bumps and spots appear out of nowhere. Was that there yesterday? Is it serious? Melanoma? Just adult acne? I have found that often it’s more stressful to deal with the fear factor than the actual discovery of a serious health issue. Before my first colonoscopy at age 68 (yeah I know, 18 years of procrastination), I prayed and came to peace in my mind and heart when I said, “Okay God, whether it’s positive or not, together we can handle it. I accept the results.” About hesitating to go to the doctor: I came to the conclusion that if I go to the doctor for an exam or not, I will still either have the disease or not have it. Actually, it’s better to find out than fret about nothing.

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  4. The fear of not knowing, then the fear of what happens next when you do.
    I go for regular checks (havng lost several female relatives to cancer in one form or another), but finidng lumps and bumps where they shouldn’t be or familiar imperfections suddenly taking on a different characteristics is scarey too.

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  5. Carrie Rubin says:

    I hope this isn’t something that’s going on for you right now. But yes, that waiting is always scary. I’ve recently done some of it with my mother.

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  6. Josh Wrenn says:

    Doing research, as scary as it can be, was absolutely necessary. Saved my life for sure, because a set of doctors before I transferred to the SCCA were very, wrong. I know this fear all too well, but knowledge is power.

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  7. Val says:

    I presume you’re writing about a personal experience and if so, I’m sorry and I hope it turns out to be fine. I’ve been through it with family and with friends but, thankfuly, not myself. But yes, the waiting is terrible.

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  8. Hoping and praying for all the best for you! Hope all goes well.

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  9. George says:

    The waiting is the worst part and I’m so sorry you have to deal with the anxiety is not knowing and worrying. I don’t know where you’re located but if you need additional tests or second opinions, based on personal family member experiences, I would strongly suggest you find the very best facility, even if you have to travel. Where you go for tests, consults second opinions or more is incredibly important. God bless.

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  11. Paul says:

    Praying for you, Barb!

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  12. Oh no Barb! When did the symptoms start showing up? Waiting is always horrible and it’s a good idea to try avoid Google as much you can even though you’ll be compelled to. Thinking of you Barb and really hope that you’ll get some good news. Sending you lots of positive dusts! X.

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    • Barb Knowles says:

      Thank you! A week ago Saturday and I went to the doctor last Monday. I had some tests done but only told my husband. We didn’t want to worry the kids when it might be nothing. So then we had to wait a few days for the next test to be done. That one took “it’s nothing” off the table. Now I have to wait another week to see the specialist. Then more waiting. It may be something simple and small. Or not. Whatever it is will be easily treatable. But icky for me.Thank you for all good thoughts!

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  13. I am hoping everything turns out okay. The waiting is the hardest part I’m sure. We had our own cancer episode last year and we’re so grateful to live in a part of the world where treatment was top notch.

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  14. The unknown is the scariest thing anyone will face, especially in health. But with research and understanding it can be a little less daunting. I hope you are alright, all my love x

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