Everyone has it. No woman goes for her mammogram thinking this is no big deal, they will NEVER find anything wrong. No man goes for a prostate check and the thought of cancer never crosses his mind. No one who smokes thinks they are the one person in the world who cancer will never touch.
Then you have symptoms.
The fear that grips you in the stomach and lungs and you can’t breathe and you check for your lab results every 15 minutes because the waiting is killing you and when they come in the fear to open them.
Then the shock from opening the lab results. Facing that everything isn’t okay.
It’s the not knowing the next step.
Not knowing if it is cancer but knowing that all the other options aren’t great either.
Trying to avoid looking things up on the internet.
Going to the doctor because you think you have an infection but finding out that you don’t.
Being blindsided because it’s a time that the thought of cancer hasn’t crossed your mind.
The lack of control.
The fear of cancer.